Wednesday, 4 March 2009

Deep Blue Page Full Of White Dots

Have you ever layed on the grass and just stared at the sky. It has this indescribable calming effect. You're looking at this deep blue page full of white dots and it looks like it could just wrap the world up within itself. But to think that each one of those dots is bigger than anything we've ever witnessed, bigger than the entire world we live on. It becomes non-comprehendible. Like how small the atom is. 

In this world there are so many things we can't understand, not because we don't try to, but because our minds aren't made for thinking on such a grand scale. We have evolved as part of this world, we are just one species. We aren't the sole rulers because a ruler can control their world, and we are far from controlling it. Every time a hurricane sweeps through America's south coasts or an earthquake leaves thousands of miles of devastation. It shows us just how far out of control this world is. But that's the beauty of it, that no matter how unruly or disastrous the planet may seem, it's still here. Because even things that seem far from organised, can have the most logical reasoning.

I heard today that orangutans spend a longer time with their young than any other animal apart from humans. The baby stays with it's mother until it's around 7-8 years old before going out into the world alone. Humans on the other hand live with their parents till they're around 18. That's 10 years difference. We wonder why we are the most transformed species on earth, well here's your answer. We play too safe. People are so worried of getting hurt or ending up with no money, that they cling onto the comfort of their home for as long as possible. If we were to leave our parents at the tender age of 8 then I'm sure there'd probably be just as many humans as orangutans. We wouldn't have this population crisis, we'd be fitting in with the rest of the world like we were supposed to.

I always wonder what life would be like if some things hadn't been discovered, if there was no electricity or technology. Life was simpler before these things came along. People found happiness in conversation and the natural beauty of the world. I read a lot, and one book that has taken my fancy is 'Pride and Prejudice' by Jane Austen. Not because of the handsome Darcy (Well maybe a bit), and not because of the cultured family life. What captured my imagination was the world in which they live. It's so different from the one we know today. To get to somewhere you simply walked across a few fields, these days the fields are surrounded by electric fence and the only way to get somewhere is by car.

I feel as though I was born a few centuries too late. My heart longs for the days of balls and etiquette. It seems so far from the life I'm in now. But I know time cannot rewind, so I do my best with the situation. Though many think me odd I choose to live my life differently to others. Closer to the ways of the past. Because I see it as the only way I can ever try to relive how they would have seen the world. Simple and elegant, where the world is still yet to be discovered.


  1. Don't we all wish for a time not ours?

  2. Perhaps, but I cannot vouch for everyone, I have only my own dreams to dream